I have been putting off writing this....
Procrastination is something that I always seem to have suffered from. Nowadays I can usually manage to plan work and study assignments properly, but it still manifests itself in certain circumstances,
- when there is a lot of cash involved
- when the task is overwhelmingly large or complicated and I don't know where to start,
- when there are forms to fill out - especially when you have to sign something that says everything is true, and there are warnings of dire consequences if it should turn out to be otherwise
- when the deadline is a long way off, or there is no deadline.
In the first and second categories we have the garden and our master bathroom. Both need a lot of money spent on them. Should we spend the money on that - or should it be spent on something else, or should we save it. Then what exactly should we have done - there are too many choices. The garden is easier and we have at last got someone on that. But the bathroom - should we have a simple shower or go for lots of fancy heads and jets - steam even, very nice but more to go wrong. Should we tile the shower enclosure (prettier) or go for all-in-one walls (easier to keep clean)?. Should we have ceramic/stone tiles on the floor - they seem complicated to put down and get right - especially cutting them? It goes on. On DIY shows it always looks so simple, until they mention - in passing - that you need some huge, expensive - even to rent, intensive-training-required electrical equipment to cut the tiles or drill through the wall. They never end up with anything 1/8 inch too small, too short, or too far to the left that causes a major headache and needs them to swear a lot, throw things, get divorced, or seal the whole room off permanently.
In the third category comes our UK taxes and the passport applications (that I did finally get done recently - I'll tell you why they got to 'URGENT' status another time). All I have to do to get the tax forms filled in is say how much interest we earned on our UK accounts and say how much time we spent in the Uk during the last so many years. It is really not hard, but I am scared that I am missing something and that somehow I will end up accidentally owing thousands of pounds. It is really silly and just needs to be done. i have to be in the right "grab the bull by the horns" mood to get going with it, and I am not quite there yet.
The fourth category never goes away, and I prefer to remove twice as much dust half as often. I have noticed though that it is much easier to give things that get greasy a quick wipe often than having to put more effort into removing a build up less frequently.
In the last category comes my TKGA Level II Master Handknitter program. I have had this for years but there are no deadlines. There is too much choice as to what you can do - the vest being a case in point. There are too many choices of vest style, pattern, colour etc and as I don't really like vests/waistcoats that much there is nothing I have fallen in love with. Contrast this with my MSc courses which have structure and deadlines for assignments and exams and everything, which i get done on time and do well in.
I took our cat Silvey to the vets yesterday. Something else I have been putting off. In the last three years she has had adenocarcinoma, the feline equivalent of breast cancer. We have had the lumps removed twice and they have come back again. You can have them treated with chemotherapy and what-have-you, but she is so miserable after surgery and when she has to have medicine that it would be cruel to make her suffer for what would only be a few months extra life.
Anyway, they said the first time that we took her that it would eventually metastasise and go to her lungs, but it hadn't yet.
This time I took her because one of the lumps looked infected and was bothering her. She doesn't seem ill, or unhappy in any way - still eating/drinking normally and going about her usual daily routine of lying on the back of the couch all day and on Sam's bed all night.
I asked them to x-ray her lungs and miraculously they are still clear. She has antibiotics to clear up the infection and she has cone collar to stop her licking it. She was much more accepting of the collar this time - didn't even attempt to get it off, but unfortunately taking the medicine is no easier.
We now have to decide whether to put her through another surgery or not - she could do with some dental work as well. She is nearly 10 years old now. I haven't put any pictures of her in the family album - very remiss of me - I will have to do something about that. She is a very sweet kitty, and a good mouser even without front claws. She doesn't like to play much, but is quite funny when high on catnip.